It’s Over. The End.

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When finishing a great book it leaves me feeling either one of these two things.

1.Happy, excited to discover a new story. I also feel like I’m a bit of a fraud. If I liked the book that much then why am I ready to betray it by starting another one right away? I should at least take a day to ponder the characters, the plot, the writing before I jump into the next one, right? This continues by me either ignoring those thoughts and continuing to be happy about finally reading a book and getting out of a slump or by getting into an even worse slump.

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2. Disconnected but inspired. What should I do now? I continue through life with this constant voice in my head. A narrator who mimics the style of the book and retells my everyday life as it unfolds in front of my eyes. “J,K and M heading to the capitol. Nothing like a ‘big city’ to escape from reality.”
Then the feeling of being inspired arrives. One of the main characters writes a book and I decide that I want to as well. I try to come up with a plot but realise that for the book to be perfect I have to sit down and plan every scene before I can start writing. As I have only come up with the basic outline of the story this kind of planning could take ages. Do I really have time for it right now? It eventually stops with me procrastinating until the idea of writing a book is a faint memory of me trying something I most probably won’t be able to accomplish.

I have to admit that movies and tv-series sometimes has this effect on me also. So what inspired me to write this? That’s one secret I’ll never tell.

➢ M

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My Almost-Stranger

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Having someone who you almost doesn’t know live with you for a week is interesting, as well as exhausting. You are constantly thinking about them and trying to make the experience as smooth and nice for the both of you. But the truth is that not everything is going to come without any problems and that’s okay. You will problably feel weird and very aware of everything in your own home. It’s very difficult to explain, but all in all it actually was a good experience. We had a lot of fun, even though I think we were both quite shy and private. And the language barrier didn’t really help either!

I stayed with my Almost-Stranger for a few days in her home last year, and I think that really helped with making this time more relaxed. Her stay with me made me realise all the things that maybe might seem weird for others but are so obviously right for me. We lead very different lives, but I still feel as we are quite similar. There are ways in which you could say we really think or act the same way, and like the same things.

 She gave me some gifts when she got here, washi tape/masking tape and a vase. The vase was my favourite colour, a light blue-greenish, teal/turquoise colour. And sure, that can just be a matter of luck, or that maybe I told her that it’s my favourite colour, I don’t know. But the washi tape… One was cheesy (half-bad english) quotes in typewriter font that looked a bit vintage/old style. And the other one was star constellations of the Zodiac signs. HOW did she know that I love both of those things? It’s actually scary. I did not tell her any of these things, I think, and it’s not really things you tell someone casually when you meet them… At least not me. “Yeah I like stars, and constellations, and zodiac signs… Oh and I really enjoy cheesy inspirational quotes, and typewriters! And you know… Washi tape is so cool and I love being creative and scrap-booking and such…” I don’t think we talked about that, at all.

Maybe we are mirrored, far away friends that, if we weren’t far away, would find out that we have so much in common. I hope our (kind of) friendship will last… But maybe, and most likely, we will never meet again and that makes me sad. It makes me wish I would’ve done everything differently, talked more, asked more, laughed more. But I will remember her, and I’m sure she will remember me, and of course we influenced each other in some way. You always do.

And who knows, maybe the stars have figured out a way for us to meet again? I’ll have to look for that in my washi tape of constellations…

  

  
~ J

Vegan Valentine’s Day Brownies

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Sometimes you think to yourself: “oh, I should make brownies” and sometimes you think: “I should try making them vegan and without any added sugar”.

And sometimes you think: “I surely don’t need a recipe?!”…

… Just me? Oh, well. That’s at least what I did yesterday evening when I got home from work. I have to admit, even though I kind of set myself up for disaster… It didn’t turn out that bad! Well, sure, it didn’t have the most brownie-cake-like texture. Sure, it could’ve been sweeter, and sure, it was mostly just a baked gooey mix of mashed banana and dates. But at least it was fudgy, chocolaty – and I actually liked it quite a bit.

I’m not really selling this recipe, am I? Try it! Yay! Valentine’s Day! Woho! Chocolate! Brownie! Vegan!

No, but seriously..  It was completely improvised, but I actually liked how it turned out, for realsies.
Ingredients:

2 banana, the more ripe the better

~7 soft dates (if you use dried, then maybe soak them for a little while, just to make it a bit easier..)

1 cup flour

2-3 tablespoons of cocoa powder (unsweetened if you want)

1/2 teaspoon of baking powder

4-6 tablespoons of “milk” (non-dairy, I used coconut milk I think)

~40 grams of dairy-free butter (I’m sure oil works as well)
Directions:

Mash together the bananas and the dates until smooth (try to remove the skin on the dates for an even smoother batter). Mix the dry ingredients and add the banana-date-mash. Blend, it will be quite dry but keep stirring. Then add the milk to loosen the batter. Melt the butter and add it too. Pour (or spoon, rather) it in to a pan and cook in an oven, preheated to 175 degrees Celsius, for about 15 minutes (I actually have no idea for how long, I suggest checking on it until it is starting to feel and look somewhat cakey on top and a skewer comes out fairly clean). Voila! Add some heart sprinkles if you want. 

Something I think would be great in this brownie is nuts! Try adding some chopped nuts, I’m sure it’s great. I wanted to keep the recipe nut-free, but now I want to try making it again with some add-ins such as nuts and chocolate chips.

   
   
Oh, and Happy Valentine’s Day!
~J (yet another baking recipe by me… I know…)

The perfect midnight snack 

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Usually we get told that midnight snacking isn’t good for you, and I can see that, but sometimes you just can’t stop yourself from leaving your room and going in to the kitchen to look for something tasty. This especially happens to me on those late study nights when I just have to stay awake and study.

I recently found this snack which, in my opinion, is the best midnight snack. I mean, it’s probably not too healthy but it’s sweet, decadent and filling. And this is how you make it:

1. Go in to your kitchen and stand there for a minute just wondering what to eat, then open the fridge.

2. Start looking through it and then you will find an almost empty jar of crunchy peanut butter from when you made Peanut Butter bars.

3. Look around again and grab a banana that’s starting to get a little bit spotty and brown. Then, peel and mash it up.

4. Layer peanut butter and mashed banana on top of a peace of bread, maybe a soft flatbread? But take whatever bread you have, I’m sure it works.

5. Think about what could finish this masterpiece off perfectly, and settle on chocolate.

6. Take a chunk of a chocolate bar that’s still just laying around, and use a grater to grate some chocolate shavings on top.

7. Look at your fabulous and way too pretentious-looking snack for a while, maybe snap a pic, and then….

8. EAT IT! And feel your stomach thanking you for the delicious and filling midnight snack!
 

~ J