So this will be the first post I have written since moving to London. I am currently at Starbucks waiting for J to go on her lunch break. I’m supposed to apply for jobs right now but to quote Troye Sivan I’m at “procrastination station, hohoho”.
So how has life in London been this far? Difficult, fun, overwhelming, soul crushing…
I realize it sounds like it has mostly been a hard time but it hasn’t. I have made some new friends, one of which is currently exploring Paris and another whom I talk to every day as she is the best member of staff at the hostel we are staying at.
But as you might have guessed by the title I have decided to dedicate this blog post to my recent bump on this terrifying adventure.
Yesterday was one of the hardest day this far, I have to say… Luckily my family and friends are only one FaceTime call away! Apart from feeling poorly I was fighting this battle in my head, should I accept the job I was offered even if I hated it when I had my trial? We have been here for three weeks now and I haven’t gotten any other offers. It felt like the only thing I had done these past weeks was slowly emptying my bank account… And I know some of you think I am insane for even considering turning the offer down because I could just keep looking for something else at the same time as I am working at said place. But for me it felt wrong and it caused me anxiety thinking about starting the job and then quitting it after a few weeks. It felt like I was using the nice people at that workplace and it would be so much easier for them if they chose someone else who really wanted the job and was there to stay.
Anyways what I want to say is that sometimes you have to make the decision that feels right by you, even when people tell you otherwise (unless the decision includes murdering people or animals… Yep, that took a turn to the dark side…) Also give yourself some time to think! Don’t rush into the decision. As our wise friend K said to me in my moment of conflict, sometimes the time isn’t right, you will find your dream job (or whatever your looking for) when the time is right and until then you have to choose what you will do until the that time arrives.
I realize this is just me rambling but I hope someone, somewhere finds this helpful or reassuring.